So, my eating began to deteriorate after my birthday. For two weeks, I was allowing myself to slip back into my disorder.
I was in crisis Friday night, after missing classes due to exhaustion and anticipating calling in sick for work the next day. I decided, once again, to get back on track.
I have now been on my meal plan for three days, and it sucks. But I can actually get my schoolwork done, and I will probably be able to work by next weekend, so there’s that.
I recognize how repetitive this pattern is getting. I work towards recovery for a couple weeks, I get off track for a couple weeks, and so on, and so on, and so on. I am fucking exhausted by it.
I can’t promise that this won’t happen again, but I hope to god that it doesn’t, at least not for a while.
I hope everybody is keeping well. I will post again when I have something new and interesting to say.